i just read an awesome post called the fantasy of being thin, about how the idea of dieting and getting thin is not only about what you weight but how much more fun and great life would be if you were thin. about how depression, failing relationships and other big issues (in everybody's life) are somehow tied to the fact that you are fat and if only you were thin it would go away.
it's a great read and the psychological thinking behind it is really adaptable to other destructive thinking, such as my own fantasy, which i guess i could call the fantasy of being awesome and handling everything. which, i have to say, is really fucking up my recovering from this stress exhaustion thing. but that's for another post.