great new video and song from dinosaur jr from their new soon to be released album farm. it seems to have leaked, but i haven't heard it yet. though according to madeleine, it's excellent.
seeing this video made me realize i'm not at all freaking out about growing old anymore. isn't that something :)
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
this pregnancy business
i'm not sure why i'm so reluctant to write about my current state since i'm quite happy about it. well, i'm not too happy about everything that keeps happening to my body because of it, but i'm happy that i am pregnant and what's going to be the end result, so to speak. i can hardly wait for the little one to come out and i have baby fever like crazy. i guess i'm a bit conflicted about how i'm going to see myself as not just me, but as someone's mother too. it's weird. i guess it'll take some time to adjust. don't get me wrong, i really wanted to get pregnant, i really want a kid, but it's hard too.
the little creature, also known as 'it' or 'the monster', is 25 weeks old now and has started moving A LOT. the sensation of having something moving inside you is odd. sometimes it just makes me happy, sometimes it's uncomfortable and sometimes it's disturbing. a pretty cool thing is that it sometimes moves as a respond to me tapping on the outside.
my body is more than ever before dictating my life. generally i'm sicker, more tired, more emotional and more inclined to avoid people than before. i also feel sick often, with the occasional throwing up for no reason (still!), i have started having sweaty palms for the first time in my life, i have crappy apatite and my hips hurt when i've walked too far, and with "too far" we're talking not that far at all. oh, and climbing stairs has become a problem.
i keep wondering, who are these women who describes their pregnancies as the best time of their lives or this wonderful experience that made them feel like real women (whatever that means)? cos, really, i already knew i was a woman before i got knocked up, and although i totally think it's worth it and that i will love the creature once it comes out, i can't really see all the wonderful about what i've described above. having to pee five hundred times a day and a few times during the night is not wonderful, getting contractions for climbing a staircase - however slowly i may add - is not wonderful, and so on and so forth.
as time passes, though, i've become more at ease with the fact that everything isn't as important as maybe i thought. i can't do and be everything, and that's ok.
the little creature, also known as 'it' or 'the monster', is 25 weeks old now and has started moving A LOT. the sensation of having something moving inside you is odd. sometimes it just makes me happy, sometimes it's uncomfortable and sometimes it's disturbing. a pretty cool thing is that it sometimes moves as a respond to me tapping on the outside.
my body is more than ever before dictating my life. generally i'm sicker, more tired, more emotional and more inclined to avoid people than before. i also feel sick often, with the occasional throwing up for no reason (still!), i have started having sweaty palms for the first time in my life, i have crappy apatite and my hips hurt when i've walked too far, and with "too far" we're talking not that far at all. oh, and climbing stairs has become a problem.
i keep wondering, who are these women who describes their pregnancies as the best time of their lives or this wonderful experience that made them feel like real women (whatever that means)? cos, really, i already knew i was a woman before i got knocked up, and although i totally think it's worth it and that i will love the creature once it comes out, i can't really see all the wonderful about what i've described above. having to pee five hundred times a day and a few times during the night is not wonderful, getting contractions for climbing a staircase - however slowly i may add - is not wonderful, and so on and so forth.
as time passes, though, i've become more at ease with the fact that everything isn't as important as maybe i thought. i can't do and be everything, and that's ok.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
counting weeks
i just had a thought. teachers and pregnant women must be the only ones actually seeing, and counting, time in weeks. as opposed, i guess, to days and months. need i more proof than the fact that i, the teacher, am the only one amongst my friends who always know which week it is? (it's the end of week 19 for those interested.)
now, being as it is that i'm currently both - a teacher and a pregnant woman that is - i realized i also have two counts going. one; that it's only 5½ weeks left until my lovely and long summer break, and two; that i tomorrow enter week 24 in this strange and mythical 40-week journey called pregnancy.
these are interesting times.
now, being as it is that i'm currently both - a teacher and a pregnant woman that is - i realized i also have two counts going. one; that it's only 5½ weeks left until my lovely and long summer break, and two; that i tomorrow enter week 24 in this strange and mythical 40-week journey called pregnancy.
these are interesting times.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
little plastic castle
some days ani difranco tells the story best.
in a coffee shop in a city
which is every coffee shop in every city
on a day which is every day
i picked up a magazine
which is every magazine
read a story, and then forgot it right away
they say goldfish have no memory
i guess their lives are much like mine
and the little plastic castle
is a surprise every time
and it's hard to say if they're happy
but they don't seem much to mind
from the shape of your shaved head
i recognized your silhouette
as you walked out of the sun and sat down
and the sight of your sleepy smile
eclipsed all the other people
as they paused to sneer at the two girls
from out of town
i said, look at you this morning
you are, by far, the cutest
but be careful getting coffee
i think these people wanna shoot us
or maybe there's some kinda local competition here
to see who can be the rudest
people talk
about my image
like i come in two dimensions
like lipstick is a sign of my declining mind
like what i happen to be wearing
the day that someone takes a picture
is my new statement for all of womankind
i wish they could see us now
in leather bras and rubber shorts
like some ridiculous new team uniform
for some ridiculous new sport
quick someone call the girl police
and file a report
in a coffee shop in a city
which is every coffee shop in every city
on a day which is every day
Friday, March 27, 2009
brain meltdown
damn, i can't think. or decide anything. have had my whole collection of mp3s on shuffle for the last week. deciding what to wear when yesterday's clothes smell too bad to use again is a horror. and i have a birthday gift to buy for tomorrow. agony.
please decide for me. yeah?
please decide for me. yeah?
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
auntie jenny
as of saturday i am an aunt! this is the greatest thing, i'm so happy. and to think that my baby sister is a mom, it's crazy! but crazy wonderful. i have total baby fever. tonight i'm gonna meet this little guy for the first time and i can't wait!
lots of exclamation points here. :)
lots of exclamation points here. :)
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
copies
someone else has my tattoo. at least it's not in the same place or the same font. but still! part of me is thrilled, part of me is annoyed. cos i'm a nerd like that.
here's the other
i found it here, at the science tattoo emporium. check out the other tattoos, there are a few really neat ones.
for those of you not familiar with math like this; it's called euler's identity, after swiss 18th century mathematician euler. in the linked article the following quote is found
i chose to get it not because i'm a huge fan of mr mathematician here, but because, like the readers of that magazine, i think the formula itself encompasses what i love about mathematics, that something that looks and seems complicated essentially is very simple. it's a beautiful sentiment. here's mine
update: i found one more. here i was thinking i was original.
here's the other
i found it here, at the science tattoo emporium. check out the other tattoos, there are a few really neat ones.
for those of you not familiar with math like this; it's called euler's identity, after swiss 18th century mathematician euler. in the linked article the following quote is found
In 1988, readers of the Mathematical Intelligencer voted [Euler's Identity] "the Most Beautiful Mathematical Formula Ever". In total, Euler was responsible for three of the top five formulae in that poll.
i chose to get it not because i'm a huge fan of mr mathematician here, but because, like the readers of that magazine, i think the formula itself encompasses what i love about mathematics, that something that looks and seems complicated essentially is very simple. it's a beautiful sentiment. here's mine
update: i found one more. here i was thinking i was original.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
breeders love
this is one of my favorite songs with the breeders, and also a great video.
also, we had snow today! the world sure looks prettier with snow. and check out pretendingtobejapanese.com i write there too now and then.
also, we had snow today! the world sure looks prettier with snow. and check out pretendingtobejapanese.com i write there too now and then.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
what's going on?
my new look accompanied by the lyrics to the fabulous song "going blonde" by juliana hatfield. enjoy.
Na na na na na na / Baby baby baby / I don't want nothing / Means I want something / Millions of diamonds / Sparkling and shining / Singing stupid songs / I'm going blonde
Bleaching my brain / I dig the pain / Firing squad pointed at the sweet spot / I'm turning myself on / I'm going blonde
Never want to be forgotten / I'm speaking American / I need some attention / Tell you my problems / What's going on / I think I'm going blonde
Na na na na na na / Na na na na na na
Baby baby baby / Baby baby baby
Na na na na na na na na
Friday, December 12, 2008
some more cranes songs
here's some proper videos by cranes. alison shaw has such a beautiful voice, and i love how the sound is so dreamy. cranes is the perfect band to listen to when it's dark and you hide under your covers and you can't sleep.
"beautiful friend" from loved (1994). here's also another great song from that album, "shining road".
"tomorrow's tears" from wings of joy (1991). also from that album is "adoration", yet a beautiful song, found here.
"inescapable" that was a bonus track/ep released during the wings of joy era.
"jewel" from forever (1993), although the video/single version of the song sounds a bit different than it does on the record. according to allmusic it's because robert smith remixed it. not surprising considering the cure brought cranes as their opening act on their '92 world tour.
"everywhere", also from forever.
cranes still releases albums, the last of which is self-titled and came out in october of this year. but i haven't heard it yet. i'm mostly in love with the music they made in the 90s and there's a huge nostalgia button that gets pushed in me whenever i hear their songs. a lot of their greatest songs can be found on their 2-cd ep collection, vols 1-2, so pick it up.
"beautiful friend" from loved (1994). here's also another great song from that album, "shining road".
"tomorrow's tears" from wings of joy (1991). also from that album is "adoration", yet a beautiful song, found here.
"inescapable" that was a bonus track/ep released during the wings of joy era.
"jewel" from forever (1993), although the video/single version of the song sounds a bit different than it does on the record. according to allmusic it's because robert smith remixed it. not surprising considering the cure brought cranes as their opening act on their '92 world tour.
"everywhere", also from forever.
cranes still releases albums, the last of which is self-titled and came out in october of this year. but i haven't heard it yet. i'm mostly in love with the music they made in the 90s and there's a huge nostalgia button that gets pushed in me whenever i hear their songs. a lot of their greatest songs can be found on their 2-cd ep collection, vols 1-2, so pick it up.
tangled up
i was just listening to old cranes songs and "tangled up" came on and i fell back a few years and rediscovered how beautiful this song is. unfortunately there's no video made, none that i can find anyway, so you'll have to make due with a live performance from october this year. before you push play, light a few candles and turn out the lights. enjoy.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
my time in america pt 2,5
more pictures of food from my u.s. trip has been requested. enjoy!
dave made me dinner the first night. too bad most of the garlic wanted to stay in the pan :(
lunch at a vietnamese / chinese restaurant in downtown salt lake city. those things in the middle of the table there, they were sooo good! they had cream cheese in them and they were fried. mmmmmm.
arby's mozzarella cheese sticks in all their delicious glory
kate's butter nut squash soup. yum!
lunch at the mediterranean market & deli. i have eaten better paninis in my life but it was ok. the store did have arborio rice so they're forgiven
donuts!! (i was in america after all..)
this is NOT how mexican food looks and tastes in northern europe, but although this specific portion (in cedar city) wasn't my favorite, the one i ate in slc a few days later was really good! though i'm sorry to say, dave, i don't appreciate it like you do.
the salmon burger in las vegas
dave made me dinner the first night. too bad most of the garlic wanted to stay in the pan :(
lunch at a vietnamese / chinese restaurant in downtown salt lake city. those things in the middle of the table there, they were sooo good! they had cream cheese in them and they were fried. mmmmmm.
arby's mozzarella cheese sticks in all their delicious glory
kate's butter nut squash soup. yum!
lunch at the mediterranean market & deli. i have eaten better paninis in my life but it was ok. the store did have arborio rice so they're forgiven
donuts!! (i was in america after all..)
this is NOT how mexican food looks and tastes in northern europe, but although this specific portion (in cedar city) wasn't my favorite, the one i ate in slc a few days later was really good! though i'm sorry to say, dave, i don't appreciate it like you do.
the salmon burger in las vegas
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